Bipolar Bliss n' Blues

This is my personal fufillment/journal diary blog. I am bi-polar and sometimes its a little hard to sort out all that craziness, the feelings, the rush of emotions. This is my sanctuary. Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose. Lets see if I grow up to BE someone! Or... fade into the background like a wilted orchid. Once beautiful, now overshadowed by others in vibrance and ambition. Like minded souls, let us share in each others wisdom, celebrate life's victories, and support each other whenever we stumble.

Saturday, June 14, 2014

What the Heck is in Asdrubal Cabrera's back pocket?

Does Anyone Know?

To me, I think it looks like the guy has his wallet stuffed in there while he's up at bat. Next time he's at the plate, watch him and wonder why you never noticed this unusually large and curiously shaped backside that's been standing right in front of you. He has a bulky rectangular thing going on that is not flattering any way you look at it. And you can't not look at it. Try to watch him and not notice his giant, funny shaped ass. Watch him like you've always watched him.

You can't right? Because that ASS sticks right out and now that's all you notice when he's swinging the bat. Or running around on the field.
There's no way he doesn't have anything in his back pockets... so the question becomes, WHAT is in there?

After some thought and some brief, but thoroughly entertaining conversations I've had on the subject, these are the likely candidates:

He's got Snuff in there. Folded up in a package. Pocket sized.
He's got a pack of bubblegum in there.
Sunflower Seeds.
Maybe it's his batting gloves folded nicely vs. shoved in and messy, the way most guys pocket their gloves. With the fingers sticking out so we know that that lump in your pocket is in fact your gloves and nothing more.

But Asdrubal keeps me guessing.
I like my theory it's his wallet. Maybe he's been mugged a lot, or had it stolen from the clubhouse. Maybe he doesn't trust people with his valuables. Maybe he's OCD or super-paranoid. It's fun to speculate.

I was curious if anyone else noticed this anomaly/baseball distraction besides me and my boyfriend (after I pointed it out to him).
If you google "Asdrubal Cabrera's butt", you get inane fan-girl messages like, "OMG he's got a hot butt!" And something about the Cleveland Indians needing to trade his butt, or wanting to trade his butt. BUT there is nothing about his strangely shaped backside. Has no one else noticed this giant caboose? Every time he's up at bat it's staring me right in the face. We'll blog about beards but not about butts?

Asdrubal, if you ever see this, please indulge me. What's going on back there? Is there something in your pocket or do you just have a big badonk-a-donk? For all the people out there with well-endowed asses, I am not hating on you. I have nothing against large rear ends. I think they are beautiful. So....

Asdrubal, if this is all natural and there's nothing going on back there, I think you're awesome.
Play well and play hard to make sure we remember you for your stats and not for your ass.
Because no one in baseball history wants to be know as the player with biggest, weirdest ass.

Much love,
La La

Thursday, June 5, 2014

I Believe in Second Chances

I've been given numerous second chances in my life. Second, third, fourth, and fifth chances. Chances I didn't deserve but ultimately am grateful for. I am an advocate for second chances especially when it comes to young, ignorant people who do bad things because they don't know a life outside of that. I was a bad kid. I was a father's worst nightmare when I was a teenager. I talked back, I skipped school, I smoked cigarettes and pot, I had older boyfriends that my parents never met, I stole, I drank, I snuck out of the house, I stole the car to get into bars downtown when I was underage... You get the idea. I was out of control and made a lot of mistakes and bad choices. My parents weren't perfect. Our family had a lot of problems and maybe if my Mom didn't have a head injury she suffered from being in a horrible car accident when I was little, my life would have been different. My upbringing suffered because of mental and emotional instability.

I didn't grow up in a broken home surrounded by crime and criminals so I have no idea how hard things can really be when you're a kid. I thought my life was hard but then I hear stories about kids who have been sexually abused, abandoned by drug-addicted parents who didn't want them anyway, kids who've been through every kind of foster parent you can imagine. Kids that grew up with their father, their uncle or their older brother in a gang, and they were expected to join themselves once they were old enough. Kids that didn't know any better and didn't know of a life outside of violence, desperation and hopelessness. Kids that were so poor they were starving. It's not surprising that the path to their future leads to jail.

People can be rehabilitated. I have seen it. You cannot change someone if they don't want to change, but if they want to change, you should support that right? A huge problem that's not getting enough attention is what happens to these kids, these juvenile delinquents, once they've served their time?
How do they get a job and start over?
A lot of businesses won't hire you if you have a DUI on your record, so there is an even smaller percentage that will hire you if you've got anything worse than that in your past. It doesn't matter that you found Jesus, or you were a model prisoner, you might as well be the guy who always got solitary confinement for stabbing people with sharp objects. Employers don't look at that, they don't compare. Prisoners are prisoners and they don't want you working for them.
They don't believe in second chances.

But some businesses do. This company, Homeboy Industries, hires ex-cons to make their bread. No, it's not the most glamorous job, but ANY job is a good job when you are a former prisoner. It's good to work with an employer that takes the time to try to understand you and where you came from. They don't judge you for what has happened in the past, they help you move forward. They believe in your potential and your commitment to change. Why don't more employers try to be like Homeboy industries? Why is there so much stigma when it comes to hiring an ex-con who has served his time and wants to change? Can we really decide someone is not right for the job when we are basing all of our opinions on who they were ten years ago?

If we don't give them a chance, they won't be able to change, no matter how much they want to. Many ex-criminals fall back into the lifestyle they left before they they were incarcerated. I think many of them are left without many options. What do you do when you've been locked away from the world for a decade, and are released to a society that won't accept you now? What do you do when you can't get a job. How do you provide for yourself?

Lets support companies like Homeboy Industries and their mission to help rehabilitate people that need a second chance. Homeboy Industries isn't just an employer. They offer services like tattoo removals for former gang members, case management, mental health, substance abuse, and domestic violence counseling. They have a Homegirl Cafe and A Homeboy Farmer's Market. They are saving people's lives because they care about the people that society has written off. Homeboy Industries is located in Los Angeles, but you can support them via donations if you don't live near them.
Visit to find out more. Every little bit helps. If you can't donate, please help raise awareness for this cause via social media. Like them on Facebook. Help get the word out!

Everyone deserves a second chance.

If YOU know of a great rehabilitation program near you, or you've read about one, please share with me via a comment, and I will be happy to add info to this blog.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Wow I cannot believe it's been Three Years... I really need to get a new phone.

Hello Blog-o-verse,

This is an open letter to tell you that I am back. Where was I? You might say I was lost in thought for three years. Stuck in neutral and occasionally flooring the engine or letting it die all together. While I was gone, I had a lot of time to put things in perspective. Yes, there is still plenty of time to do something great. I sometimes felt like I was running out of time, and I was getting older and losing touch with the common man. In some ways I was OK with that. It's pop-culture that's not OK with it. Everything we buy needs to be replaced by year 3 or its probably "outdated." Especially technology. My laptop is 5 years old. It overheats, has a mediocre webcam, and weighs 14 lbs. I can't take it with me wherever I go. I wish I could but it's just not practical to carry it around. I do not own a tablet of any kind. I don't really see the point of having one. If I did buy one I would probably get the Windows Surface because it's both a notebook and a tablet. I must have my keyboard. I do not want to become one of those people who are ALWAYS on their phone but apparently I need to get with the times and buy a new one. Yes, I know: Phones are Cool. They can do pretty much everything except go to the bathroom for you. Oh Wait. They have a new one coming out. They call it the IPoop. It will probably be here in time for Christmas.

All kidding aside, what is it that makes doing everything on your phone cool? The portability factor can't be beat. You can take your phone with you just about anywhere. You can take a selfie in an airplane bathroom with poor lighting, turn yourself into a cat and post it on facebook. You probably shouldn't because of federal regulations during flight time as well as WHY would you want to.. but you CAN. Sadly, you can't stuff it in your back-pocket because awesome phones aren't pocket sized. If you have cargo shorts/pants then your good but watch out for pickpockets and don't hang upside down. Cargo pants are great but they don't protect your phone and phones are SO fragile now its ridiculous. I am actually scared to get a really nice one because I'm pretty sure I will break it. Like within a week. Phone insurance is not an option for me, it is a must. Remember flip phones?
I can't tell you how many times one of those little suckers would fall out of my pocket or off a high shelf (or even not-so-high shelves) and break in two.

One piece for hearing, doesn't work. The other piece for viewing and dialing,  might work but you can't hear anything. Pretty useless. One time my old
flip phone slid out of my pocket while I was getting into the car, and I ran over it. Another time I accidentally washed it. I heard it banging around in the dryer after looking for it for a half hour. Surprisingly it worked after a couple of days, though it was never quite the same. I'm bad with phones. I finally got phone insurance after replacing the third flip phone.

Now we have to worry about the screens.They get cracked, they get scratched, they get really dirty and you have to use special micro-fiber cloths to clean them with. To protect your phone, you need to get a case for it. The case will generally make your cool phone bulkier and heavier. But you can get one with Hello Kitty all over it. You can get one that turns your phone INTO Hello Kitty.
That's great for Hello Kitty fans and people who actually care what their phone looks like, but I don't care about all that. I was okay with my LG 900G blackberry wanna-be. It's a STUPID smart phone and it's so not cool. When I first got it, oh a couple of years ago, I thought it was pretty great. I loved that I could make my own ring tones and record videos and take decent pictures. I loved that it weighed hardly anything and I could fit it in my back-pocket like a calculator. I loved that it HAD a calculator. It was pre-android (if you can think back that far) so any apps I got were simple apps. But I never had apps before. I loved this phone... but now I hate it because now it's outdated and I can't stream You-Tube on my phone.We are SO spoiled now with technology and its almost too much for me to be able to handle, like which phone should I get to replace my crappy old one?
I'm leaning towards an IPhone or a Samsung Galaxy. I'm kind of anti- IPhone. A few years ago everyone I knew that had any money, or any of the guys I was dating had an IPhone. I started to become attracted to the guys who didn't have one because they were Rebels. I hesitated giving out my phone number to a potential suitor when he whipped out his IPhone. I'm not really sure what my problem was with the IPhone other than the fact there were a lot of assholes using them. The Galaxy started getting my attention. The advertising campaign for the Galaxy was pretty great. It was essentially, look at the cool stuff you can do with this phone.
 I thought this commercial was pretty cool. It seriously pauses when you look away. Really? How does it know that? Neato. That's pretty much what I got from that particular commercial.

I also like the unicorn one. How can anyone not love the Unicorn Apocalypse release-party idea? Did anyone think to look into making a Unicorn Apocalypse video game? Possibly for PS3 and PS4? I'd totally play that.
 This almost sold me but in order to get it I would have to switch to AT&T. Deal breaker.

BTW- where did this commercial come from?

 Is it from the same people who started making those cheesy Apple commercials? Remember Christmas time? Thank goodness we have our IPhone or our IPad so we can capture all these family moments. So sugary sweet they almost made me sick. The sad part is that besides me and my boyfriend, EVERYONE we knew ate that shit up. I knew the ads were just trying to pull at my heartstrings and failing miserably. Apple, if you want to touch people emotionally, check out this Budweiser commercial:

This commercial was perfection. Bonus points for the Passenger song.  If you don't at least tear up while watching this, you probably don't have a soul.

So what can I say... I guess commercials really do influence what I purchase. I know I'm drinking a Bud on occasion due to their emotional WIN. You keep making commercials like this Budweiser and I might need to buy an 18 pack once a month to support you. And I LOVE my micro-brews.
Samsung, if you make another Galaxy S ad and it has a Death Cab for Cutie song with a kitten in it, I might go to the store today and buy one. Until then, I am weighing my options reading 12,000 reviews on the Galaxy, IPhone, Nexus, Droid, Windows, and HTC phones, while my phone becomes more and more obsolete and I hate it like I hate the Yankees.

Go Sox.